Vent Fest

[25yearsmlc]

Tonight D10 is going with her dad after 10 days straight with me. Tonight after PT I am going out to dinner with friends, tomorrow night, baking apple stuff with a friend, Saturday is D10's pediatrician apt an a football game and volunteering, and sunday is a winery with some good friends I haven't seen in a while. I should be busy and less depressed.

absolutely. If a minimum, you're stopping the "alone with my thoughts" cycle. Good.


I really do hope the ex leaves the wife home for my D10's doctors appt. She is with him, but I go every year, so I am meeting them there. There are some places she doesn't belong.

amen. I dread the thought of weddings and having the idiot in any photo. May as well caption it "the interloper" and that is a polite caption. Unbelievable that she is so clueless and shame on them both. Except they're shameless, so that's out.

my sister's ex HAD to bring his "new" wife to school conferences and such, b/c the wife
insisted. From what I know, he did not enjoy that reality.

So All might not be well in paradise - esp since you are a nurse. Make sure you ask technical medical questions so if she makes a stupid peep, you can glare at your exh.

Anyhow, so my sister had a family dog that was terminally ill. The ex h wanted to be there for the veterinary appointment with her & the kids. My sister agreed.

The vet came to the house (very nice, btw). So they were all crying and soothing the dog and she went peacefully. The ex carried the dog out to the vet's and after some more hugs, he drove off.

Turns out he had to go to a hotel b/c his "new" wife of 3 years, went ballistic that she was not included on the dog goodbye. (Stomp stomp...)

My sister had remarried and her new h had disappeared for the event, knowing it was a FAMILY dog from THEIR -prior-original- family...

anyhow, as sad as that was^^, the hotel "vacation" my former BIL had to endure after putting the family dog down, was a bright spot in a tragic story...for me & my other sisters, anyhow.


On that note, ex and I were working out D10 schedules and he always says "WE have her on this day" and "YOU have her on this day". It is a huge trigger for me every time he says "We have her" or it's "our day" It's a reminder of what they did and how they became a we with my daughter. It hurts.


ugh

what if you told him that "although you are over it", you think it's remarkably lacking in insight, given the history

AND given that
the father and mother share custody. Not the step parent.

Or is there a plan you are not aware of, in which she going to court for her own "rights" do d10? If so, he should have let you know...

Btw, I am Glad that woman is kind to your d, but am still galled by her.


Weight watchers unfortunately isn't working very well. And I am hungry. I even cut out my nightly wine. So basically everything that brings me joy is gone, haha! And for what?!

for YOU, i.e. your health and your sexual self esteem - b/c knowing you have a good desirable body for sex, which WILL happen for you, feels better than obsessing. Plus your knee will be better, back pain is less - trust me, I hurt my knee as a teenage softball player and hurt my back in my 20's. Felt I had healed fully. Turns out, later on, not so healed.

See it as something you are doing for YOU and put a positive spin on it, or don't do it. No more beating up Ginger!

Btw, I have a heavy set friend who is my age, and incredibly comfortable with her sexuality.

She informs me that "men don't care about a stretch mark!" She is quite emphatic about this, which I totally enjoy.

You look great, and I know this.

I applied for my job, the application is currently under review. I am praying I get this.


sending positives your way! Plus it's a start for you doing real looking around, which is great no matter what happens. No being stuck at a job with 3% social interaction.

You are exercising choice. Feels good.