ok well feeling like you're dying, wanting to feel alive - isn't that classic depression symptoms?

I'm impressed that a. she admitted it promptly and b. that she says she needs to find out why she cheated on you. That is a person who is looking for answers. There may be some hope here.

And yes, the best person to talk about this with is her therapist. It sounds like she has a lot of trust in the therapist's opinion ("I will see what my therapist says" "if my therapist thinks I am strong enough"). That is good, because if this therapist is worth their salt they can help guide her through the tunnel.

I wouldn't put much stock in her showing or not showing. She needs to do some more baking (without the smokey treats) ...

It's a process. As painful as it is for us, I'm glad we are not them. Can you imagine? Ugh.

Loving kindness my friend wink
xoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver