I actually think I GET what you are saying. I almost said to my H the day he dropped the bomb on me about the one night stand- it could just have easily happened to me.
THAT DOES NOT EXCUSE IT. But if I'm honest, there were times in my first marriage that were so awful, and I got the slightest attention from another man, I could feel the shot of adrenaline, the rush, the heat, and if they had pushed, well I don't know.
The difference is..... I did NOT cheat. I got a divorce instead. Because life was so horrible I did not even care if I lived or not.
I'm just sayin....... don't beat yourself up. You keep posting girl, and being vulnerable and honest on here. That's the only way any of us can help anyone else.
M-60 H-51 M-14 years BD 12/26/16 S 1/1/17
"First the pain, then the rising." Glennon Doyle Melton
