I sacrificed a lot of my own emotions and feelings for my W and I realize that now. If I was a stronger person back then, armed with the knowledge I have now I would have been the first person to challenge our relationship and where it was going. I was unhappy as well and even though I kind of new it, I just thought this is married life.
Yeah this is the part that is quite interesting. When AS had written about the LBS and WAS/WW both having this foggy mindset which was polar opposites, and how time clears it up for the LBS.
I spent so much time early in the sitch thinking how I totally effed up everything and how it was all my fault. Over time I realized that I was also unhappy and that I wanted some things in the MR that I wasn't getting and I chalked it up to just married life and being an adult - you don't always get what you want, but the ship wasn't too rocky for me and so I could hang on.
Just like you, if I was stronger and had the knowledge that I have now, I would've challenged the relationship and tried to see how it could be worked on.
I forget what the exact phrase is, but I've seen it a few times on the board - the difference between the LBS and WAS/WW is timing of the BD.
Rock on month 5! I need to look at my BD timeline and figure out which month I am on lol. I think I am about the same timeline as you.
