MLC or WAS... either way, I'm here

[LAJar]

Coincidentally, after my last response yesterday, H texted for the first time in close to 2 months. Texted hello and hoped I was well. Then went in on how he needs me to get in touch w/ his L, who has been trying to get in touch with me through a notice sent to the house. Trying to get in touch in my opinion wouldn't just be a notice, which required me to do nothing. Then he wrote he's willing to negotiate sale of house & D. He wants to get house appraised before the new year and has someone who wants to buy it after the new year. Thanks and wished me a good day.

I was livid. After no communication in almost 2 months, reaches out as if nothing has happened & hopes I'm "well". Is he insane? Well, yes, I believe he is. He's abandoned daily responsibilities to this house, was late on the 2nd mortgage payment since he left, requiring me to fork over the $ so it wasn't late. Then, he's going to tell me what he plans on doing for the house and I'm supposed to wait another 2+ months to sell & who even knows who he has in mind to purchase & for how much. It took all of my strength to regain my composure and respond. I texted him that my L would contact his when I finalized a couple of things next week. I have 1 more small home project to finish, then would have the home appraised. My brother who represented us in the purchase, would represent me in the sale. If he doesn't want him to represent him, he'd need to find another agent to co-list. Anyone he has in mind to purchase the home can bid on it just like anyone else. Lastly, I asked him for my outdoor sunshade & lights that he took from the house (most likely to OW's house). I had only purchased them 2 weeks prior. Thanked him and wished him a great day.

Holy cow! The nerve of him trying to direct me in what needs to happen, to what he thinks will work best. As if I'm supposed to wait around in this house, alone throughout the holidays while he's enjoying life, and only until after the hustle and bustle of the season has passed and he's less busy?! Of course I was angry, but more so hurt and disrespected. I think that's the bottom line for me in all of this, disrespect. His public displays w/ OW, the lack of care for our MR, my S & family, is disgusting and hurtful. He is carrying on w/ life as if he hasn't a care in the world. I know he will reap what he sows, but at this given moment, it's more than I can comprehend. I do have to say, my initial anxiety subsided more quickly than in the past. I called my mom on the way home to tell her what he texted. She has not shown her anger for him until now. Because I was crying some and she didn't want me going home alone, I ended up spending the night at my parents. I should be in my new home w/ H, not crying at my parents. After my first emotions, I pulled myself together and was ok. I know this is what it's going to be like for some time. If I don't let my emotions get the best of me for too long, I'm making progress... I think.

Thank you peace for your wishes. We will both be ok & will have some fun spending time together. I worry about my S, but I also know he'll be ok. If I can get him to see an IC and I do try not to bombard him w/ too much of what is going on. I need to be more mindful of that and only if he asks. I have definitely held back on all of the details because he doesn't need to know everything. What he knows is enough. He says he wants to speak to H this weekend face to face. I'm trying to discourage it just because it's his b-day. Why ruin it w/ that? I have mixed feelings about him reaching out at all, but I will at least discourage it for this weekend.

To what tomorrow brings...