Update Today I filed for son sole custody, as I was walking into court office I ask myself over and over how did I get here how couldn't I stop this. And had to walk back into my car and cry. And then memories came back flooding I remember how W and I pillow talk how if we ever separated we will always be friends we will always be civil. I then felt anger and lied to how can W put our kids through this. Wow reality kick in we are here.
Kids are doing amazing D9 and S8 know am trying to get S9 back they now just saying when hr be back. D9 has been more angry in school inpatients i received an email from teacher spoke with d9 and starting her counseling next week. W has not realize how this has broken our kids. I just don't get it but I know there's nothing I can do.
Well as for me since BD on April 2017 I been recovering from surgery getting better and stronger met amazing people through groups, met a nice girl in the last month who has been totally supportive with everything she knows my situation it breaks her heart to see me hurting but she knows this is a path I have to deal with. This weekend friend took me to movie and brunch. W called saying she was dropping kids I explained I wasn't home W said to pick them up I can't drive so a friend took me and W mouth drop and today W calls me to say it broke her heart to see me with OW. W doesn't know she just a friend but once w said that I spilled my heart out it's been over 3 months since I said ILY and today I broke down and I heard how W voice change.
Smh she was cake eating to see if she had me. Back to going Dark. Smh I just don't get it. How can they just play us as yoyo...
Back to focusing on kids and Me. And mentally preparing myself for holidays this is going be a hard holiday... I just ask God to lead me.
At BD Lesbian marriage Me39,W36 S9,D9,S8 adopted all three Together almost 10yrs Bomb Drop - April 2017 W movedout - May,2017 OW June,2017 Currently 2018 Me40, W38 S10,D10,S9
