I agree w/Irish and HaWho 100% on postings and how you shine through. Your advice has always been spot on and you reach out to posters in a very kind and compassionate way.
Your spouse had some serious coping skill issues, i.e., like most of them, and ran away. You, like all of us, didn't ask to be divorced and have to deal w/MLC along the way.
Keep up the good work. You are an inspiration to all!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
