Well I'm back, I've read DR again, and I'm finding things in there I missed. ALthough I read the Infidelity part like 3 more times. At times it feels hopeless, as now WAW seems to be spending more time with OM. Last 2 nights for sure. I know I have to let it slide and be upbeat and happy. Do I ask her how her nights were with OM? Or do I leave it alone and keep on as I have been. Oh and again on Sunday we got into a fight, she told to get out of her house she didn't want me there, she got into it with me over stress over money again, I said to sign the Agreement we had and she would have lots, was that wrong?
But I will say this, I am going to practice being more distant to see if she initiates anything. The problem I have with this, is if I don't hear anything in a few days I start getting those bad thoughts in my head. The ones that says she really prefers it this way. But as you say betsey I need to respect her decision that she wants time alone, which I sometimes think is a line, as she can usually find something to do with OM. I really hope I'm not wasting my time with her. These are the things I keep thinking about, I try to fill my days with activities to rid my mind of these thoughts, but as soon as I slow down, they all surface again, and I get edgy. But I will keep trying to get them out of me head, resist the urge to call and contact her to see if she will inititate, I'm also starting to think I don't give things enought ime as DR says. I'm almost starting fresh here, is that a bad idea???
I thinking hard about it, just forgetting everything I've done, even inthe lst little while, as it seems to be pushing her towards OM more. Which is of course natural reaction, seeing me more and knowing she doesn't want it, will probably make her feel liek she prefers OM.
I will let it be and see what happens. Can anyone answer some of these questions for me please, some guidance is needed, I feel myself spiralling out of control again...
