Try to not look at social media if you can stop yourself-
I know its hard but it can't help you right now
You sound like you are becoming very aware of things and that is good your son can keep those memories they were real I always tell my kids good things about their dad and how much he loved them--all true They can keep that stuff a parent that truly loved them a parent that got mentally ill in crises nothing to do with them
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