Finding my way out of the dark - Part 4

[Holding]

Went out with a friend last night for dinner and we sat at the bar. He helped me work through some emotions about a legal issue I'm struggling with - it pretty much requires me to decide if I'm 100% done with this M or not. I don't want to get into the legal side of things here, but I view this as a real point of no return for the M. Still haven't made up my mind.

Anyway, as we were talking we got into a conversation with two women sitting at the bar next to us. I was attracted to one of them. It turns out she's actually from my hometown and grew up not too far from me. I noticed she wasn't wearing a wedding ring. She even seemed to put her hand into positions so that I might notice (her left hand was on the opposite side from us). We made eye contact a few times. They were flight attendants and actually made a comment about my friend and me flying somewhere with them.

This did make me realize I just don't feel right doing something like that until I'm done with the D. But there is a small part of me that says, "Hey doofus, why didn't you get her number?"

On the drive home I was all smiles for myself. I think I'm starting to get my mojo back