There was no expectations for me helping out. But afterwards I started to wonder if I should have done so. I am supposed to be detaching here and was doing good. She called I didn't hesitate to assist. And I can't help but to wonder was this all a test. Also was I foolish to help when OM may still be in the picture, also potential OM who have been in my W ear talking bad about me.
It matters if my W is testing the waters seeing if she can still use me. So it's not about doing opposite of what I say. It's about trying to make the right choices when dealing with your WS. The thought about trying not to be a jerk came after I agreed to do so. And I am honestly wondering if I shouldn't even care at this point.
It's like I am doing fine with detaching and then she calls. And I am now questioning my actions. As far as the scenarios go. I just wonder why my W could talk bad about me as if I do nothing for her. But the very people she values, she asks nothing from. OM has actually be described as a freaking Savior on her poems. But yet the savior is not asked to perform in miracles other than sex? So afterwards I was feeling a bit foolish for helping out.
