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[gw5263]

Once again you are entirely spot on Sandi. I went two good weeks without a word about the R,M,OM or us. It just really chapped my butt that she was so afraidd for anyone to know we all went on a trip together. Almost like she was embarrased of us. I get what you are saying. I dont get all the contradictions with her, but I guess im not supposed to. I dont know what i did so wrong that she'd shut her heart out. She has two given two vastly different reasons why -thie first time it was because of things sh says i did during the Sep, like threatening to turn OM in and reading her texts. Now this time its because she doesnt want to go backwards and live the same life, and she has emotionally disconnected and doesnt want to try to reconnect no matter what. Each time we have talked it has been a different story. Guess that comes with the turf. maybe It is all rooted in her A, but you are right. I need to not focus on her and detach. The divorce thought popped up because i was mad. I do need to not work off emotion. Its a hard process for me tho. It took all i had in the two weeks i didnt bring anything up not to. It just all seems so ridiculous to me. My emotions get to me because i let them . i need to find a way to supress them and do what needs to be done. I wish i had someone i could just sit and talk to about this whole thing face to face or on the phone. I have a hard time expressing myself any other way.