Today is another bad day. It's raining, the house is empty. I have no work to do. I feel empty. I keep having thoughts of SO, that I just cant seem to shake. I am really feeling the depression.
My IC session was yesterday, but I don't feel like I am getting much out of them. He taught me a tool, of slapping my leg when I was lingering on thoughts of SO. He said I need to replace those thoughts with something positive. That's not working, no matter how hard I try. I continue to wake up EARLY with thoughts of my previous life and how much I miss it.
I have been reaching out to friends as much as I can, but everyone's lives are so busy. Making new friends has shown to be a challenge. My days feel like they are filled with nothing, lately. I am just lacking close companionship that I crave so dearly. My dog is great, but he just doesn't complete me....
I've done some home decorating projects, to keep busy. I bought an antique wooden door, to hang at the end of my hallway. It has pane glass windows in it, so I thoughts I would use it for framing pictures. I also added a large scale eclectic item in my kitchen. I am trying anything I can, to put her out of my memory, and build my new life. It's still such a struggle to find my motivation.
