Leah, part 6

[leahsue]

I read this today and thought it was beautifully worded. Just wanted to share and maybe help lift someone up.

"Grief showed up at my feet on December 26, 2016. She took my hands and started dancing frantically, pushing me to my knees. She’s been with me in the horrific initial conversation and has twirled beautifully as I’ve started to stand. I carry her with her sharp teeth, and soft feet in my heart pocket as I wake and work and again find joy. She is the cold ache of lost and alone, and also the warm reminder that I will survive, love again, and become stronger and more authentic every day."

And also, from a new favorite author,

"what I miss most is how you loved me. but what I didn't know was that how you loved me had so much to do with the person I was. it was a reflection of everything I gave to you. coming back at me. how did I not see that. how. did I sit here soaking in the idea that no one else would love me that way. when it was I that taught you. when it was I that showed you how to fill. the way I needed to be filled. how cruel I was to myself. giving you credit for my warmth simply because you had felt it. thinking it was you who gave me strength. wit. beauty. simply because you recognized it. as if I was already not these things before I met you. as if I did not remain all these once you left."

Let's not sell ourselves short in our beat-up frame of reference. We. Are. Enough.