Hi all, just a mini update from me. Not much to report really. A friend of mine is struggling at the moment. Her ex is about to marry again - not his AP thankfully, but still. My friend is single and would love to meet someone too. She wanted to spare the kids from knowing about her errant ex's infidelity, so she has never told them. They are playing active roles in the wedding, which is a bit tough for my friend. I'm not sure what to suggest really. The kids are grown and I think perhaps they should know the full story, but I haven't said this to her. Perhaps it is too close to the wedding for that...
Any ways, I'm about to step down from the job I stepped up into. My replacement starts in a couple of weeks. I'm looking forward to having a little more time for parent-care, dancing, singing, seeing friends and me...I have no regrets at all and I"m looking forward to inducting our new colleague.
Milestone birthday is approaching and I'm looking forward to it. I'm doing a few different things with friends, family and colleagues. I don't see much of NG at work at the moment, but somehow he has been invited to my party - crossed wires between me and my boss. I don't expect he'll come, but we'll see.
I've been asked to a couple of things by different guys, who are nice enough - but I just haven't really been that interested. I'm not sure I have much to give just now and I like the simplicity of being single. No news of XH at all and I remind myself not to even look or ask nowadays as it doesn't help! In a way my married life seems so far away - but my mind still touches on XH - probably every day at least and I do ruminate. Not in any awful way and I'm not in a a bad place at all - but I hope that lessens.
Truly, I do feel a better person these days. When your spouse is trying things on for size and you're not part of the new capsule wardrobe, what else can you do? The advice to focus on you, learn, grow heal, move forward - it's so important.
These days, I am more steady, happier from within and much less dependent on people's good opinion. I take more risks and I dance, sing and laugh more. I'm so much more accepting of me. I remember when I met XH I was so desperate to be loved. Now it is different for sure. Yes, it is nice to gain approval, but it doesn't ruin my day in the same way if it isn't forthcoming. I think I am much more discerning now...
Anyway - a bit of a non update really, but I do read along and I like to post from time to time - keep a hand in on the forum that has helped me so much. There is a big old slice of humanity here and I am grateful for it.
Best wishes to you all xxx
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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus