Am I stuck?

[Citygrl]

Hope you are feeling better today. I have been at this for a little over four years and honestly don't really know how I feel today. I know this is a process. Life is a process. When things get depressing I try to redirect and know that things won't be like this forever and will get resolved eventually.
I made what I consider the big move when I had my mediation appointment and my husband avoided and ignored the process. Then I filed in court for a hearing as his financial disclosure was due in March and still nothing.
Granted I moved the bar forward mainly because I am afraid he will get OW3 pregnant. Since then he has been more responsive but still no disclosure. He came to the house to work on some household things and it was happy days like we were married.
I am telling you this because I think we are at a point where not a lot is written. We are in our own MLC limbo reaction. We have changed. They have changed. It looks like they still could not care about us or the marriage. But then the big question looms as to why do they not respond to divorce: Money? Hassle? Doubt? Who knows.
I can say that stuff is going on with them. I really thought and resigned myself to think that in all probability my husband was going to marry OW2 when BAM suddenly she was dropped in a huge BD when he left her over OW3. So, there you go. He is flying high with new romance. It is like a drug.
Let us know how you are. Your other post was scary. I get it. Some days you ask is this it? I agree with Doodler. You sound very depressed and if suicide is really an option you are considering you need to run not walk to the doctor. It is not ok.
Please stay strong. Check back in.