MLC or WAS... either way, I'm here

[LAJar]

I am hopeful. I will keep my steady 9 to 5, but hopefully parlay this training into work in the evenings and/or weekends. God knows I have the time now.

I am trying to experience all of the feelings that come up, work through them and move on. I'm sure I will go back and forth, but feel like I've cycled through denial, sadness/depression & bargaining together and now anger. I'm sure something will set me off and take me back to sadness. This is the worst thing I have ever experienced in my life and more so because I have no control over it.

peace, I went back to some of your earlier posts and see a real difference in your writing, in comparison to when your sitch began. Your sadness and despair resonated with me. I look to today and your words of wisdom to those just beginning this journey are unbelievably appreciated. I am hopeful for myself that I can get to a better place in life, find peace and bring my happy back.