Still here. Still not detached... (Part 2)

[Chris73]

Thanks everyone. Sometimes I operate under the delusion that I'm going to wake up one day and be genuinely on-board with this whole thing. Thinking in absolutes is one of my problems. But digging my heels in and becoming an obstacle in the process is only going to make things worse for everyone. Pride and ego are really difficult to keep in check during this process. I want to get a t-shirt that says, "This is NOT my idea!" But I'm starting to realize that most people know this without me having to tell them.

I didn't make it to the meditation session yesterday, but I did have a good IC session and pushed myself really hard at the gym. S8 and I have been reading Harry Potter together for the past few years. We're on the final book now and he's really excited to keep going. So last night I sat on the train and read it to him over the phone for 45 minutes. It seems a little sad to not be there with him, but I just think of it like a dad who travels a lot for work. I don't think he felt sad that I wasn't there in person. I think he was just happy that we were reading regardless of the logistics.