Still here. Still not detached... (Part 2)

[Chris73]

Thanks Guys. I know it's definitely a moral conflict.

When I take myself out of the equation, all that's left are two kids who love their mom. She will have them 60% of the time, so logically I want to give her as much $ as she needs to get set up in a nice place. Any malice that would influence me to cut her off and not help her get set up in her new place has to be squshed because my kids will be living there too. I'm not going to go with her to look at houses or help her pick out furniture, but I also can't start some sort of "my house is better than yours" battle so that the kids want to spend more time with me (as much as I would like to).

But I can't help feeling like I'm twisting in the wind. Of course everyone wants the kids to be happy and minimally affected by this change. But I've lost so much and I'm still really angry about it. Maybe my W is just a good actress but she seems to be so happy about all of this. Her life when she's not with the kids is bursting at the seams with appointments and events and plans. It's as if dumping me is the best thing that's ever happened to her. Like I was the source of all her problems and now that I don't need to be accounted for anymore, the future looks bright for her.

I know. Wah. Wah. Wah.

Monday morning pitty party strikes again!!