My apologies for not responding individually, I am posting during the rush of my morning routine. I wanted to update and will return later to address everyone's extremely helpful advice.

Last night I went into WH's man cave to ask a few logistical questions about today. (he is off from work and will be doing a lot of errands)

WH put down his game remote and approached a relationship conversation. In essence he asked would R be possible. I was extremely frank in telling him that I had deep doubts about his ability and willingness to do what was necessary to regain my trust. WH told me he made the biggest mistake of his life by cheating. That he had trouble even looking at me when I was back to my original self (laughing, being silly and gentle) because he realized how deep the pain went from his choices. He said he felt guilty even asking me to reconsider because I looked so light and relaxed recently. He felt like he needed to do the selfless thing for once and let me be free. He said he had noticed I had confidence and had truly let go and now he realized he was losing me forever. Again and again WH asked for me to lay out every single requirement and he would do them all, anything.

During the conversation WH pulled out his phone and deleted his snapchat without me asking and told me to tell him every single time I felt unsafe in our marriage and he would rectify anything he was doing. WH then transferred money into my account to cover the legal retainer fees and said that was so I could continue forward anytime I wanted with the D but to just give him one more chance. We stayed up very, very late and now I am exhausted but overall I feel...neutral. I am not putting y eggs all in this basket. I will continue to fill out the financial affidavit but will let my lawyer to know to hold the submission of the first draft of the petition and will sit back and watch. I will continue to DB in earnest because that has been the one thing to help me stay detached and moving forward.

Feelings? While WH has never done anything so dramatic and said such things I am still feeling very neutral. Thoughts?

M 10yrs T 13yrs
BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW
BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off
Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce
April '17-Letting go
2018 D busted
DD8, DS6, DS3