Rebuilding my life #3

[lcause]

I find it odd that people assume it would be a 180 for me. I've taken kids out several times when she's felt tired or ill, since the BD. Also in my marriage I obviously took kids if she had to go. I spent 2x half a year with my D pretty much alone while she was studying to the pre-exam to get into her uni (she met OM there last year). I loved her and supported her for 8 years so she could get into the university.

Just to counter this I asked how she is doing now and did she get hospitalized and it was a no. She visited again. So D was put to grandparents while XW probably used the situation to be with the fuckwad.

Now, please understand that she's not there for me to care for anymore. She trashed me and switched me to another man, who didn't want to ever have kids just a year ago. She does not care that my son who I tried so hard to get with her attaches to another man. This hurts so bad. Please stop talking about me not being there for her. I have accepted all the blame for the breakup and accepted that she wanted OM because I wasn't there for her/apparently didn't love her, and OM can make her happy like she said. But please do consider that you are exaggerating this. I misinterpreted her vague message and didn't want to put off my entire weekend full of GAL which was the best time I've had in ages. She has visited the doctor on short notice before too, so I would have loved for her to open up a bit more that it's more serious rather than what it has been before.

I am not really DBing to get her back. I am imagining my life with someone else. My situation is hopeless. They are going to marry. It's a fact. I am here to recover and to share one viewpoint/experience. I also like to read other sitches.

Thanks Btrow.