HI bttfly and Juju. Thanks for checking in. I am feeling a little better, thank you. It is official, official, the grades came in for my last class which is 100% so I am good to go! I can't wait until I am holding that diploma in my hand.
D10 went with her dad Thursday night for the first time in 10 days. I went to PT and they all ask for her I realized how much I missed her. I picked her up Friday, then she went with her dad again. She texted me Friday night that she missed me already. I saw her Saturday morning for her game. There is OWW chatting me up like her bestie. She was sure to tell me that her sister went to her parents finally and it was a great visit. Oh I am so thrilled. I left after half time and went to the GYM! I am so sore today! I love it! I was able to do the bike and upper body. Hey, and there is major eye candy at my gym. FF and joined this gym together. I think he went once. His new GF works the front desk at a different one so surely he goes there now. I think I am going to go to the gym today too.
Friday night I did absolutely nothing and it was really nice! Last night I went out with my dad and stepmom and her mom for a celebration dinner of my completing school. My dad told me to take uber so I could enjoy some beverages. We were talking last night and he told me he brags to his friends all the time about me. He said his friends have some crappy kids who just take and take and feel entitled (as adults with children) and he is so very thankful I am not that way. He said he knew I never had it easy yet I accomplished so much on my own. He knows of the sacrifices I have made and he says he is very proud of me. It meant a lot to hear.
Weight watchers is going well. I only lost 2 lbs the first week, but I stuck to the plan and picked really good choices going out last night. I can do this. I want to do this.
Now that I rambled in the insignificant details of my life, here are the big ones.....
A job change is definitely coming. I was talking to a coworker who used to work in my department and she told me I would be really well-suited as a hospital case manager. years ago I tried to become one, but everyone wanted experience. She was a case manager, she has contacts and she will help me out. The hospital in our system near where I currently work now is a mess in the case management department, she was told me her source said it's a bad move now. But another hospital in our system, a little farther away has a position and they are well run. There is actually another hospital in our system 10 min away from me..... but they aren't hiring case managers right now, but it would be very ideal. So I have been contemplating this decision all weekend. I have always wanted to do this. I could work with patients and families again in the hospital environment, use my critical thinking skills, but not have to do hands on work. It's a demanding job and it won't be as flexible, so I need to make sure this is the right decision. I really do need the challenge. I didn't become a nurse to sit behind a desk and spit out numbers. I have been doing what is right for D10 and now, maybe now that she is in middle school I can challenge myself a bit.
IN addition, my therapist said for my love and social life, I really need a change in environment. I work with some great people..... they are all 15 years my senior. But the same married people since day one. Working all with a variety of people, being the hospital would be good for me. There was a case manager at my old hospital who had a goal to meet a doctor and marry him. She did. She married a surgeon. Mission accomplished, haha! And he is also a super nice sweet, divorced surgeon. usually that are arrogant arses, but he is nice, we hang out once a year for an event.
Change is coming. I am just fearing making a decision I will regret.
