I hear what you are all saying. I want a life wighout him but unfortunately, the kids don' t. It is upsetting to see them idealizing this guy and get mad at me if i say no for anything. I am stuck. I am mad and i am fighting for my respect amoung them all. I feel used and manipulated in all direction. How many times have i felt like walking away from it all??? Many, many times. Without ex-h support, we will meet ends meet.. if the extras is what the kids care about, they will know where to get it. I want my independance. I do not what life served to me on a silver platter. Why? Because our pride, our self-confidence, our self-worth is earned by each of us through our goals, our devotion, our achievement and our struggles and our choices..
My point on those texts were not baiting for an opinion of me but a WHY would you do this?
Pitty for us? Grandiosity for you? Trying to do the right thing? ( this is not the way to do it ). Releive guilt?
To me: BULL S*** is what it is. I am smarter than this. I know who i am and i am not for sale. I do not NEED this kind of people in my life. In my opinion, i did not degrade me, HE DEGRADED ME THROUGH HIS ACTION.
