Now I feel like I am just being me. I still do not talk about our R or D and I don't initiate anything however I don't find myself trying to play games any more. IF she texts I text back, if I can take my girls i take them, if I have some extra children's allergy medicine and she asks for it sure I will bring it. This is me, this is who I am. Take it or leave it. For me doing anything else would be vindictive or I would just be doing it to prove a point. At the end of the day what is it going to get me? I don't want to be scared and not "step into" the conversation. i don't want to hide and run scared. If this gets me a D then so be it, it doesn't bother me anymore. IF she called me up right now I would tell her to go file if that is what she wants and I would not have that sinking feeling in my stomach any longer.
Dude, welcome to detachment. I've been waiting for you.
My wife's birthday is today. She leaves for work before I get up. Six months ago I would have been thinking do I text her do I not? Do I wait until later in the day? What do I say and then wait impatiently for a response.This morning I got up and went for a run and texted her when I was done "Happy birthday, I hope you enjoy your day!" Set the phone down and took at shower.
Tomorrow I plan to ask her to start putting a list together a list of things she wants from the house for when she buys her knew house.
