So I thought things were going well. I've been GAL. Taking care of my self. Reading up on how to improve myself. About my anger. I came to work yesterday feeling great. I even emailed my friend and said today is a good day. I feel so good!! Then I get to work and H is angry about some work stuff. He's not listening to anything I was saying. And then he sent me home. Normally I would have begged to stay at work. Instead I picked up and left. He texts me 10 mins later come back in and we can do this right. So I come back in. And then he is nice and polite to me all day. But in front of Other people he is condescending. I finish my day out and go home. Later in the evening I text him and say today was a disaster. I said I just want to come to work and do my job in peace and go home to my quiet peaceful home. I said professionally you cannot treat me like you did.
He responds that he is just wants peace and tranquility in his life. He is tired of the hostility and bridges have been burnt on both sides and can't be fixed. I said I am sorry to hear that but I didn't burn any bridges for you. They are all still there and open. He asks what I want in the separation. I said I didn't know. What did he think I was 'entitled' too. Because two days before this he told me I was entitled to only the house since we were common law. Not the business the cars the real estate or anything. And he wasn't giving anything up for what he has worked so hard for. Now this conversation last night he says that I worked for the business and am should benefit from that. A compete turnaround from the day before??? Anyways I didn't say anything. I just kept saying that he wanted this he could make the terms of the agreement and I would get my lawyer to look at it. So then he says do you want to do mediation? Is that it? I don't answer. Because I already came him his answer. I did tell him that I was mad that now the kids holidays would be split up and now one of us will always be alone. He said that isn't fair. And I said no. But that is what a legal separation is. I told him I wanted to wake from this nightmare, but if this is what he wants. Then ok. Because if I said anything else it would be pursuing and trying to control him. So now I don't know what to do. I'm going to read DB again this weekend. I'm alone for my first thanksgiving. The kids are with him. But I'm looking for advice. I thought we were turning a point here. I wasn't arguing. I was happy. And then I get swipe swiped with this.
