Went on a very long walk with WAW last night after making dinner together. Over the weekend I sent her a very honest email about how I felt I had been treated during our separation (control, resentment, lack of sex, etc).
I knew it was going to hit her hard, and she told me that it did. But she told me that all of those things I said were true, and that she knew that I was just being honest with her. While it hurt...she was glad I had the guts to say it.
During the walk I talked about how we never argued the right way (controlling vs passive aggressive) and even when we separated it was only 90 feet apart. I talked about how we never communicated the right way (Why don't you ever vs I want you to). I talked about how we never dealt with our sexual problems the right way either. She said that was all true.
I am taking a job out of state and hope this will actually give us real space and time apart, which she said she needs to decide what she really wants in life.
Am I nuts...or if you've tried to fix the problem the wrong way...why wouldn't you want to fix it the right way this time?
"The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step." – Lao Tzu
