25 - I wasn't suggesting you were being rude... I was saying that if H perceived it that way, he needed to ask the next question on if what's behind it is truthful. We often get caught up by HOW someone is saying something instead of focusing on WHAT they are actually saying.
BUT I do agree with your T on that you are a little fearful of how H would perceive you. Your M trained you that way and it's gonna take some time to retrain yourself otherwise.
Your M also seems to have trained you on worrying about your H more than yourself so I agree with OWN on the headspace issue.
Continue to journal if it helps your moral compass keep you on the path you want to be.
And if you are coming my way this holiday season.... please let me know!
M(f): 43 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
