I don't believe there are rights and wrongs. Only how we feel about ourselves in making them. Yes, I also think about my kids, but they do not want to talk about their father at all, so that process does not include discussion for us.
I didn't see anything that made me think you were hoping for reconciliation. Whether you are or not is a personal choice and not one that I have any judgment on.
By headspace I was referring to the fact that you seem to care a lot about how he might potentially view each of your decisions, whether active or passive. I don't care what mine thinks, only what he does in response.
