Hey man! I am sorry for what you have to go through today - I can't even imagine all the feelings you're going through. I hope it's quick and so you don't have to endure it for too long and can spend the rest of the day processing it.
I am really glad to hear that you're thinking about your trip and something happy for yourself.
Again, sorry where you're at right now. It's okay to be in the moment and feel what you're feeling. This is some painful $hit. I wish I was there and I'd take you for a drink and we could share some smokes. I will do that in your honour today.
