kml- does it work on fingers on the texting pad? LOL My mouth I can control. It's the texting piece that usually gets me.
Rose- Today's Leah DOES thank both you and last night's Leah for STFU.
Ownit- I resisted.
I guess he realized at some point last night. This morning I had a text from him that just said "I totally $ucked up. I am so so sorry."
I have no idea if that means overall, our relationship, forgetting the anniversary, or any other random thing.
I feel nothing. Nothing at all. Not anger, really not even sadness. Just gratitude that none of this hurts as much as it did 10 months ago. And also gratitude that in another 10 months, it will hurt even less.
I won't respond to his text b/c there's nothing to say.
Well, my INTERNAL approach has wavered as you know. Thinking it all out first, even if I only give myself a minute, helps. We have had one 6 minute conversation about health insurance, in the past year.
Wow, reading that ^^ makes me shake my head.
He reached out to my brother right before my nieces big shebang wedding, and then my brother would text me...So I had texted h right before the wedding weekend so he'd stop reaching out to my brother = me, right before all the hoopla.
But I did NOT think it out in advance and I gotta admit it was partly to remind h that my huge hilarious family, whom he loved (I THINK??)
was still having a great time without him. That I was having a blast.
Petty? God yes. Getting sucked in? YES.
But at least it was effective in getting him to back off then. He's reached out to me twice since and I've struggled mightily - MIGHTILY - in wanting to text him back directly
but I refrained. (It was about a 51-49 "election" in my head).
Leah, Remember our wildly inappropriate concern that "we don't want to be rude" when we don't respond to a WAH later reaching out?? Yes, let's both remember^^^ it.
Turning a corner...yes you have.
There are a lot of corners in this maze, but since the overall trend is upward - it's good.
Sorry the week was hard. Really.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
