Not much sleep again last night. I went down around 9:30pm, completely exhausted, and I was wide awake by 1:30am. SO keeps slipping into my dreams and thoughts when I wake. I dearly want to stop that cycle. I was able to have a positive day with D10. SO asked if she could give her a ride home after school. I was reluctant but agreed. After the drop off, I sent SO a text expressing that I appreciated her staying connected to D10, but that I needed as much space as possible from her, to start my healing. she agreed, but asked that I break the news to D1O, which I did. At this point, everytime I see her or hear about her, it pains me deeply. I need the separation to get her out of my thoughts and focus.
