Kylo's Thread Part 2 Chances Look Slim

[Kylo]

Back from vacation. We were in a 7,000 sq. ft. house on the beach with friends, so it is hard not to have a good time; but it was oddly lonely. I wasn't really expecting that. I was surrounded by families, and I just have this zombie (to me at least) of a person to tiptoe around. I won't be going on vacation with her again.

I was only able to control my reaction once out of three incidents. Her hair trigger has become my hair trigger. I didn't really think about my DB strategy while I was down there. I'm just kind of done with the whole thing. I read 25MLC's comments on my phone and re-litigated the R. It just pi$$ed me off all over again about my W. For two days it just kept running through my head off and on "I friggin' hate you". Not good for a reconciliation.

We played this question game one night. W was totally drunk. She won the questions "Whose promises are like lottery tickets" and "Who most carefully crafts their social media image" I won some questions that really boosted my confidence. Anyway, the whole vacation was a mixed bag. Vacation used to be the one time when W would be happy and nice to me. Not anymore.

I'm not making any rash decisions since I don't like emotion ruling the day, but right now I just want her to get a job and get out.