Leah, part 6

[leahsue]

Thank you peace and ownit, but in all honesty.....

I DO NOT HAVE THIS. It hurts tonight.

The universe always has a way of balancing things though. My son's partner just showed up unexpectedly to spend the night, and my long lost girlfriend from NY just called, out of nowhere. She just said she's had me on her mind all day.

I am SO TEMPTED to text H and go all sarcastic, but I would not be pleased with myself in the morning.

There will come a point where he will remember it was our anniversary, and he will say something. But I'll be DAMMED if I will be moved by it or respond to it.

Today was a huge factor for me. I had no expectations, which is why I am not sad tonight.

But I did see it as a turning point for me. So there it is.

Hopefully I can make it until bedtime and not text him.

THERE WILL COME A TIME. But it's not tonight.

If anyone is reading and can give me a few seconds, it sure would help me to have some encouragement to KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT and leave him alone. Only 5 hours to go until it's not our anniversary anymore. I truly think after that, I will be hardened enough to not even be tempted. Maybe I will be able to see him as the a$$hole that he is.