Thanks you all for you faith and encouragement. I have no idea what my future career path holds, but I do know a change is coming.
I handed in my last assignment last night. Barring I didn't fail them miserable, I am done. I cried tears of relief and D10 thought I was really sad. I explained to her why I had tears. They were of happiness, relief, and accomplishing something I feared I couldn't.
I just feel something really NEEDS to change soon. I won't be laving the organization because I would have to pay back the tuition reimbursement. There is another position I am interested and I am contemplating applying for.
I am just at the point where something needs to change in my life. I can't keep going as I am. So if it's my position at work, or a relationship status change, it just needs to change.
I just felt like celebrating with someone last night, but instead I had some wine alone. It just is what it is.
I haven't spoken to ex in a while and it's been nice. He last had D10 on Tuesday and she won't go to him until Thursday. As far as I can see, neither of them contacted each other. I did keep D10 very busy this weekend. It was nice to have no cheer for a weekend. Freed me from a lot of stuff that was causing some anguish.
I began weightwatchers today. My IC suggested I don't try to diet now because but I can't stand the weight I've gained. It's uncomfortable on me. I need to lose the weight for my well being. I have nothing social coming up, so I printed out a bunch of recipes I want to try. I'll try to make it fun.
