Earlier in the week, H texted me (in response to a text I sent him about upcoming tax deadline) about what a stressful week he was having, (having to go before the president and board of his company explaining why he's one million over budget on this move.... blah blah) and when I made the necessary reply, I tacked on (and wished later that I hadn't but had just stuck to business one liner) that I hoped everything went well. Not too much, but more than I should have.
So Friday night I get a random text from him that says "wow what a week-thanks for your support." Which I saw as a conversation opener from him.
And I chose not to respond. Which is TOTALLY unlike me. First of all, I had 5 of my best girlfriends here for a sleepover and was too busy GAL to respond, and second of all, I did not FEEL like responding. I'm just really feeling kind of over the whole thing right now.
But then I did the SAME THING YOU DID- started to feel like "Now I'm being rude."
RUDE????? RUDE?????? SERIOUSLY?????
When I just read your post, I thought- Wow, good for 25 for recognizing the ridiculousness in those thoughts!- then 5 seconds later saw my own forest in spite of the trees.
One more thought though.
I think both our thought processes say so VERY much about the kind of people you and I are, and who our Hs are.
Right?
M-60 H-51 M-14 years BD 12/26/16 S 1/1/17
"First the pain, then the rising." Glennon Doyle Melton
