Hang in there swoopy, the first 1.5 months kick my @ss. You can't stop thinking about it and all you want to do is talk about it. I am 4 months into BD and I can tell you it does get better.
Just take care of yourself, allow yourself to grieve and know that you will survive this. I have spent hours on this site since BD reading everything I could to help me process and understand.
Keep posting and journaling. It will help you through the pain.
