Last two days have been a glimpse into the past. W has been in contact by phone. She spent the evening with the family last night. We talked on the phone this AM. Throughout the day multiple texts we are planning an event for the kids. A call this evening just to ask how the rest of my day went and actually had her laughing a couple times. W has not laughed with me in almost a year.
Now some truth...
This scares me... so have so much hope that things will Workout but every time I see progress I feel like I'm having panic attack.
Real progress has been made since the day lost my patience with her and placed some boundaries on what I would except as far as communication with kids and myself. W still spends a great deal of time alone and sleeping if not at work. But now will call even if tired and try to talk with the kids sometimes just to say good night. I thanked her for this the other night she looked at me and said it's nothing. I looked at her and said a goodnight by voice is 100 times better The a text and if she needed proof I would send her a picture of the kids well the were on the phone with her. She started to tear up hugged me and said she needed to leave. W texted me later that night and Thanked me for a good evening.
Lots of good going on but can't seem to keep the ROCK of my chest.
Today was a GAL day some biking and volunteer work at community garden
