Oh yeah, life goes on...

[Sotto]

Thanks guys and yes I can certainly see how we both tried to avoid conflict, which then impacts on the closeness and intimacy - and in time that erodes and so on...add some midlife angst into the mix - and here we are....

Busy week for me. Been to a Celidh, to a big meeting in another city, to an art house movie, looked after my Mum, a 50th party and now I'm a few hours from home on a personal development course. All good really..

Had a testing moment with a friend recently. She asked me to ask the guy I had coffee with if he would like her number (as I don't have a romantic interest in him.) My (internal) reaction was - yikes that's going to be embarrassing. He and I had coffee and he keeps in touch. But, going out with him was my first date in 15 years, and I didn't want to get myself into a potentially embarrassing situation by asking him this. So I pondered it for an evening and told her (as nicely as I could) no. It was fine - I hate to say no! - but I did it and didn't worry about it too much, and she was okay with it too, so all good.

I continue to work on my relationship with my Dad. He and I had lunch last week, and I do find his company stressful. Literally two minutes after he arrived, my stress levels soared. It's a work in progress to be sure. I'm working on compassion with boundaries.

Being out and about as I have been, I notice I still have some anxiety about - I'm in a different location and what if I ran into ex, OW, both. I know they wouldn't come into my sphere - but if I'm in another sphere..it's irrational. Doesn't stop me doing things, but I notice I have the anxiety about it - something to work on...

Been busy making some nice plans for my milestone birthday. Booked a little time off, treated myself to an indulgence I'm looking forward to, and invited some close friends and family to a couple of events. It's not for a month or so, but I had been wondering about what to do, and it's good to have plans in place now...

Anyway - that's it folks...a non-update really, but life keeps moving forwards...

Take care my friends xxx