What to Do? 3

[chris19]

AS & East -

if she's actively having an A then I would chalk this all up to spew and stay NC

Thank you; I will chalk this up like you both said, and return to NC. I will not give in; it is not an easy road; which it was never expressed to be. But I am working toward creating a better Chris (let go of the NGS, become non-dependent, and set personal boundaries).

Sandi - I get how explaining myself fully could influence her need to pursue me more...it kind of put a pause on her, b/c I just basically told her everything, and how I currently feel. That was a mistake on my part. I def was in that habit in my M (explaining myself to keep the peace).

Hopefully by me going back to NC, she will begin to wonder again... I don't know. This whole journey has been a roller coaster of emotions (cue Ron Burgundy in the phone booth).