Well, I did it. I mustered up the courage to ask my manager her feedback. She told me honestly that the big boss does not easily forget and it will take a very long time for her to do so. She said I am free to apply, but as a friend and a manager she does think my chances aren't are pretty bad.
Dawn, I did hear something I can sue to my advantage. I was honest with her and I told her I wanted to advance my career. I have enjoyed this opportunity but I really do need a challenge. I have a ways to go before retirement and I want to stay with the organization. She told me she doesn't want to lose me in this position, but she understands what I am saying and will keep a look out for something she might think is a good fit for me.
What am I going to do? My mistakes in life are ones that stay and do not go away. They all haunt me right down to the man I married. I bust my @ss in day in and day out to be better, to make my life better, and sometimes it feel all for nothing.
I have been pretty depressed lately. I ran myself ragged and when I had the chance to sit down, I felt so isolated. No one to talk to nothing that my body could physically do anymore, so I popped my pills and went to bed.
Something has to give before I crack.
Last edited by job; 09/28/1710:15 AM. Reason: edited a word
