Well, detaching is much easier now. About a week ago, out of nowhere, I just became disgusted with my wife! I think about her with the OM and it makes me sick. Not angry, not bitter, just grossed out. I can no longer look at her in the eyes and even though I am able to sleep in the same bed as her if I wanted, i no longer want to. Ive just been taking turns sleeping with one of the kids. So, detaching myself from her all of a sudden got super easy because I no longer want anything to do with her. However, now I am the one being selfish because I have no intentions of divorcing. I'm basically just living rent free and getting my kids 100% of the time. If she files than I'll be perfectly fine with it but until then I'm fine with my current situation. Granted its only been a week and I've flip flopped before when I didnt think I could but this is the first time I've felt this way. At this point, even if she came back to me, I dont think any amount of counseling could save the marriage. My question for the board... is it wrong for me to continue on like this? We aren't fighting or anything, just normal every day chit chat. We attend parent/teacher meetings together and stuff like that. She does have a lot of built up anger towards me and it doesn't take much for her to snap at me for the tiniest little thing but I just laugh it off and carry on. It's hard to tell what the kids notice and that is my concern about continuing on like this for very long. I find it hard to believe she won't file soon but until then I'm enjoying my cake just as much as she is.
Me: 43 Wife: 37 2 Kids: (8yr old B, 5yr old G) OM Discovered Mid Aug '17
