You guys are right. My dad says the same thing. I am really going to make sure this is an opportunity I can fit into my life. I may approach my manager now and ask her what she thinks of me applying. Part of me is scared of hearing the truth, that I wouldn't be considered because of my "infarction".
Juju, both of us had good intentions. The line gets blurry sometimes when you help someone else and hurt yourself. It was definitely a learning experience for me.
I am so beyond exhausted I have been going non-stop. ONe thing very worth mentioning is the what I found out from ex and OWW and our conversation. We were at our town's festival day where D10 cheers and then walks around with friends. Ex's psycho sister comes up in conversation, then he says to me "just to warn you, OWW's sister is like her, minus the violence. Just be aware of the conversations D10 is having with her because she is very manipulative and asks questions to get to us". Then OWW has like a half hour long convo with me about her sister. About the problems they have been having and her personality. They got in a fight the night before and she was basically venting to me and I actually gave her some advice, but really? WTF? First, my D10 has to deal with her and now OWW thinks she's my bestie? It's twilight zone all around.
Today we had that birthday party for D10 together. It worked out well. I saw his friends which I was friends with for many years. It was nice to see them. They are very kind to me and also seem like they might even miss me a little. Me and his one friend were talking about life, he was showing me all the pics of his kids.... I think now ex and OWW have been together longer than we were. or just about the same. But it is nice to know his friends still hold space for me. I think may even like me better, haha.
I may have to cry in my car sometimes to handle this situation, but I can do this for my D10. Her comfort and happiness is of utmost importance. To be able to give this to her may be one of my greatest gifts, although the hardest. I do this for her, but a little selfishly, I hope the universe also gives back to me in some way.
Next weekend is a bi-week for cheerleading, my weekend with D10 and I don't have to see them. I should have my brace off and I think we will go apple picking. Next Sunday is also my last day of school.
I'm so ready to get rid of this brace, but wow, people are so nice to me! Strangers are always holding doors open and tell me they hope I recover soon. The attention is nice, but I think it is time to say goodbye.
