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[gw5263]

25, i apologize for my behavior. Ive had some time alone to sit and really, truly go over everything ion my mind. to answer your one question, yes, my son is on the spectrum. Highly intelligent and very inquisitive.I have not asked him to be my Bond. I would not use a child in that manner, even if i suspect she would.
You are also right, i did come here for help saving my marriage. revenge is not the way to do it, niether is snooping. You are also right by saying that im all over the place. I am. It needs to end and will end now. I took what my son said to me and viewed it as an immediate threat. Looking back, i over reacted. If OM is going to do something hes going to do it. I doubt it would be anything criminal in nature. I have to get to the place where i can work on me. I need to set a plan for GAL, I need to detach correctly, I need to 180. The boundary setting, i am unfamiliar with and wouldnt know what to begin with. I need to spend a good deal of time looking inward instead of for the magic bullet. every thing you said in your last post is spot on. I need to open my ears, and more importantly my mind to what you and others like you are trying so hard to tell me. I have let my emotions run the show, and i realize that i can't operate that way successfully. Can we begin again? I am wide open to suggestions, and can take constructive criticism pretty well. Dont give up on me, ill get there. It just takes an outside set of eyes to tell you how crazy and irrational you really are, because i have to say, absent that, i thought i was on the right road. I actually was, the right road to divorce and loneliness.. I appreciate the slap upside the head, multiple times , thanks 25!