LRT is my 180

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Yes, I appreciate what you have to say very much.
I do know that continued detachment is needed, and I do know my GAL efforts need to continue as well. Trying...
Some days/weeks are harder than others. This past week was a hard week, and I think when that happens I slip into looking for these little slivers of 'hope' instead of avoiding expectations and mind-reading.

My apologies if I come across as someone who is seeking to play games. I do not consider myself a game-player. While there may be some of that in my nature anyway (there's prob at least a little in most people imho), it's not something I normally seek out or enjoy. Mostly I just want to a) be able to be myself, b) have myself be a better version of me, and c) find things that work and progress toward recon.

Thanks to all who 'keep it real' here even when revealing to me things that I do/am which I'm not proud of. I've been known to be a prideful person, and while much of this whole sitch is unfortunate to live through, it is definitely stripping me of my pride and that's a good thing.