Hello exquisite...
I know you are right and in someway I should see the blessings that he is of bothering me or the kids.

In some cases I know the kids are doing fine because they don't see his side...but sometimes I just want to know is he really working hard as he claims or just having the time of his life... am I stupid to stand for the marriage... just want to know does he has someone in his life or not... I don't know who to ask without embarrisg my self ...

sometimes I want to fight with him so that I can get angry and leave for good ... as if I am looking for the motive to completely drop the rope and move on ...

Although I am doing well and enjoying my time with my mom and my kids... I don't think a lot about him no more but I would like to know where is he in his journey ... if still in reply I want to quit... does that make sense...

I am greatful for the journey as I learned a lot from it ... I am a stronger person now and have a great relation with my kids due to the fact I had to look inside and be the better parents but I feel I am getting ready to move on now without him if he is still stuck in mlc


M 45 H 45
D1 12 D2 9
BD 04/14
Living two different state
Not officially separated