It certainly does help, and thank you. I hate that you are able to sympathize with such feelings, but knowing I am not alone really does help.
The new wrench thrown into my life is a big change at work. I may have mentioned a coworker who rubs me the wrong way and has sneakily been poaching my tasks. I kept quiet about it to my other coworkers because I don't want to start trouble.
Well, my manager whom I love dearly just got promoted to director. Great news for her, but now her manager spot is open. We were encouraged to apply. I'm not, but I know this woman is.
It finally came out that none of us can stand her brown nosing sneaky ways. Nobody can stand her. It is not only me. We all agree, if she becomes manager, we are all transferring. So for that reason alone, hopefully she doesn't become manager. We are a tight productive team and I think our current manager who will be the director knows if we aren't happy, our department will fall apart.
What is a joke about all of this is, while she works like a robot spitting out unreal numbers, (while I am on here, hahaha!) I am the one she comes to with all questions . My knowledge is greater than hers.
I don't know if our manager sees it yet. But I was upset in our meeting the other day when we needed to figure out something I offered to go through a list and figure it out. At the end of the meeting, she asks this brown noser to do it. WTF? it was my idea to even find the problem there!
So, I am not going to totally panic yet, but this is the smooth part of my life for now. I'd like the boat to not rock too much.
Saw my IC yesterday. She said she could tell I am emotionally running on empty. She asked me what I had in "my bag of tricks" to help me through the tough spots. I said "I am out of tricks and I can't preform my normal ones" She said she sees that and I may just have to let it wash over me until everything settles down a bit. She knows my boundaries are being crossed by OWW family and it drains me.
She went on about how proud of me graduating she is. She has been with me since I started school and said I have really been through some crap and she is seriously amazed how I am graduating and with a 3.98 average (I am still upset about that one A-). I look to my IC an a mother figure, quite honestly. So it meant a lot to hear it from her.
I have a full docket since yesterday. I was out of the house from 7am to 11pm. I was supposed to have the night to myself but I am going out to dinner with an old friend who is moving out of state. I am really honestly too exhausted and I want to back out. 2 other people are going, but I feel like a crappy person for doing so.
The rest of the weekend every waking moment is a task and activity. Tomorrow night will be really fun though, I am looking forward to it.
I am so tired. From 0-60 in no time. I long to go back to laying on the couch being taken care of, haha!
