Last night was a bit of a hum dinger. I really got fed up. I was ready to throw in the towel. I got out some tears and when my wife was to return home and was going to have a conversation with her about ending it all.
She told me she was tired of being with kids all day, especially our S1, because it was draining her. She was upset about this all day.
She told me I always have this and that going on. This confuses the hell out of me. Because she told me she didn't need my help a while back, she told me she needed space. I also have been helping out a lot more around the house.
So she left the house mad last night. While she was out she called me and asked me questions and was talking to me, this confused me. I just took it for what it was worth.
While she was at the store she called me and asked me did I want Popsicle, she came home and we watched it together.
My wife is very confused about her life and what she wants to do with it. She wants to go back to school, but don't push to get enrolled. She was looking for a job to move out and get her own apartment, she has stop looking. She wanted to work out to lose weight, she has barely went since BD. She wants to become a vegan. She's trying to do all these things, but with very little follow thru.
I have been encouraging her thru all of this. I'm just at my wits end of what to do in this situation other than let her go free. That seems a little messed up to me because, she is so down, but I know I can't help her.
The only real motivation she seems to have is to talk to this OM.
M:37 W:37 T:11 M:10 S17, S13, S10, S4 BD:06/28/17 OM confirmed 07/20/17 Recon the M 10/29/17 Working hard:2gether
Onward and forward
This process is not a sprint it's a marathon! Patience, Patience, Patience.