PsySara, you will always be a warrior queen to me.
You're still fighting, but for something else - for the happiness and stability of you and your children.
I used to think that the battle would be over if only WH would come home, but your journalling has exposed how naive an expectation this is. For that I thank you deeply. We get into all sorts of problems because of unrealistic expectations, and because of your posts, you may have saved a few more hearts from being broken even more badly.