It's great that you are managing to sit and talk. Its not easy so stay strong. Try to not offer any more hints that you still want the marriage because you told her that many times before

Stay strong.
Btw I like reading your posts, good writing style snd cery 3interesting to read. You should consider writing books.


M 11 Dated for 4 years before then
Me 35 H 39
D 10
BD Feb 2016
A 2015 Dec
I was never in a R with the OM. Had a one night stand & I stopped contact immediately
I confessed the A to H and we went for MC