Trying to stay above water 2

[25yearsmlc]

So weird thing came up at work today. Some customer asked me and my office assistant If H was single. We've never seen this lady before. So my office assistant who knows my story says no my H is not single and I am his wife. This woman blushes and changed the subject. I walk out of the office and she asks my office assistant how my and Hs relationship is.

WHATTTTT????WOW...that is "tubesy" of her (as opposed to "ballsy") You sure she does not know your h? So weird...

I come in the middle of the this conversation and tell this weird, b@llsy woman that she can have him.

so you did assume they had a prior R? (Otherwise why say it, right?)

H walks in and she tells him that I told him she could have him. Because she was wondering if he was single. H goes is that right?

If they really did not know each other

then I think you had a chance to do a lighthearted loving (180?)

thing like "He's my h and I'm too attached to him to let him go/too used to his presence to want it removed/still love him after all these years so I think I'll keep him"


and if they really did not know each other, I might be hurt if I were your h. FYI




The woman finishes her business and leaves. She was not a looker of any kind. Her outfit was complete with compression socks. My office assistant and I are speechless about this woman hahaha my H does not know what to think.

you don't think there is anything between them, correct? Pretty territorial of her.



We are appalled at her behaviour. Anyways. Here's the good part. Back 6 months ago. I would have been so jealous. I would have freaked on Hs head for no reason. But today I didn't care. Not at all. It was such a light feeling. I'm going to bed tonight feeling ok for today's win. For at least today I felt normal and ok with my whole situation. And one day I can't wait for a day to stretch into every day.

^^This is great!!

On the h and I front I continue to be happy and casual. My old self. And now I see h grasping onto his anger. Anything to get angry about, even if it's not my fault. Just so he can stay in his little world validating why I am such a bad person. And you know what. Now that I know that. His opinions make me laugh. Because I know what he's doing. And it's pathetic. And no longer holds any power over me.

the longer you can experience this type of peace, the better. You'll backslide at times b/c hey, it's NOT a Linear process as you know.

But when there is less pain and power over you, enjoy those moments and watch them grow.